God cannot change he has promised in his word, that he is the same yesterday, today, forever. Therefore I MUST be the one to change for him.
I can't keep living a life of lies to him, he doesn't deserve that. I need to be living my life for him NOW, not later on. I know I have screwed up in my past, and I know that I am 100% forgiven, but part of me can't move on, and the other part already has.
To be honest, I'm confused and a bit concerned I never will move on. I know I can, I know I have the strength, but I still can't seem to be able to move post that day back in the summer of 2004, and 2006.
I know its in the past, but part of me is still living in that day. I just.... I have never been able to completely surrender to something/someone and that's what I really need to do now, with my life and every part of me. I need to do this more than anything, but I don't really know how to exactly. I know I can just ask, but that seems to easy.
It must be harder right? Like God,s son have his LIFE for me, I must have to do something more than just ask....
Lord I need you now,
Your my only hope,
That I will live for you, daily,
Your my only one,
Who is worth living for, Provide for me,
And keep me safe in your arms.
Lord I need you more than anything to come into my life and help me to be living for you, daily, and completely in my life. I need your help to keep me living for you, help the fire that's burning for my longing and desire for you to be number 1 in my life, to keep burning, and to keep burning stronger and brighter every day. Lord I do love you, but I really need your help right now, to be showing people that daily at work and at home. But especially in my dating relationship. Lord we need to be putting you first, and I need to be making more of an effort to do so, and lord I'm sorry that I haven't. :( I have let people down because I haven't, and I need to start living for you 100% of my days and living out everything I believe. Help me lord know I pray.
Amen.
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2 comments:
Sis. very good post. Living for God is definitely very hard to do and we all fail at it many times. We fail every day but God forgives and loves us. Yes, it is up to you to change but the Holy Spirit puts the words and actions into your heart to make a good decision. Pray without ceasing. You can do all things through Him who gives you strength
Big Bro
thanks Bro.
that means so much and yes i just got that now :P
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