Only God

only God knows whats going to happen. You can worry and fret, but in the end it doesn't matter, because God has everything thing in his hands, and He will not let you go or stop protecting you. you are HIS precious and He loves you and cares about you so much. thank you Lord for your promise of never ending protection and guidance :)

God's strength

No matter what you find yourself going through you can always find something to smile about. God gives us a million reasons each day to be happy and smile. i know in my life, its been hard to find reasons. the only reason I have been able to smile and be happy lately is because i have finally surrendered my life fully to God and realized that nothing else matters. God has taken away all my sins and there is nothing i can do to change that. the decision He made to die for me, can not be undone. God's love is renewed each day and He is always there encouraging us, even when others don't. He is the ultimate father, redeemer and friend, and all i can id live for Him daily no matter what comes my way. He knows what he is doing, and He will never put me in a situation i cannot handle. Thank you God.

God

God is greater than anything on earth, and I have started losing sight of that. I know what he has done, I know roughly who he is, but I am not living for him 100%. Something needs to change, and that needs to be me.

God cannot change he has promised in his word, that he is the same yesterday, today, forever. Therefore I MUST be the one to change for him.

I can't keep living a life of lies to him, he doesn't deserve that. I need to be living my life for him NOW, not later on. I know I have screwed up in my past, and I know that I am 100% forgiven, but part of me can't move on, and the other part already has.

To be honest, I'm confused and a bit concerned I never will move on. I know I can, I know I have the strength, but I still can't seem to be able to move post that day back in the summer of 2004, and 2006.

I know its in the past, but part of me is still living in that day. I just.... I have never been able to completely surrender to something/someone and that's what I really need to do now, with my life and every part of me. I need to do this more than anything, but I don't really know how to exactly. I know I can just ask, but that seems to easy.

It must be harder right? Like God,s son have his LIFE for me, I must have to do something more than just ask....

Lord I need you now,
Your my only hope,
That I will live for you, daily,
Your my only one,
Who is worth living for, Provide for me,
And keep me safe in your arms.

Lord I need you more than anything to come into my life and help me to be living for you, daily, and completely in my life. I need your help to keep me living for you, help the fire that's burning for my longing and desire for you to be number 1 in my life, to keep burning, and to keep burning stronger and brighter every day. Lord I do love you, but I really need your help right now, to be showing people that daily at work and at home. But especially in my dating relationship. Lord we need to be putting you first, and I need to be making more of an effort to do so, and lord I'm sorry that I haven't. :( I have let people down because I haven't, and I need to start living for you 100% of my days and living out everything I believe. Help me lord know I pray.

Amen.
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Trusting Through Everything

Even when hard times come, there is one person who is able to help and guide me. God will be my strength and shield, even when everything seems to be falling apart, there is one thing you can count on. God's strength is forever and it will never fail. Even if you argue with people you love the most, and it hurts, you will get them back, you just need to keep believing they will come back to you, and more chances then not, they will come back. You just need to have faith and trust that you will see them again and be with them again forever.
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Reaching For God

It isn't always easy to be reaching for God in hard times. I know in my life I have had a hard time doing that. Especially with people stabbing you in the back this way and that.
It wasn't untill I met some very special people that my mind changed about this. When I met these people for the first time, I noticed something different about them, what it was I didn't know, but I had a good idea of what it was. I have been longing to find that group of people that I can relate to and grow closer to God with, and I have finally found them :) thanks guys. <3 love you all.
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times are changing

things are slowly looking up.. i thought everything was going downhill and that everything i did turned out wrong. BUT i have learned from a very good friend... that i am not a fail at life and stuff having to do with life. (L)

Your Love

Your name, is like a mighty mountain, your name, is a strong and mighty tower, your name, is a fortress of forever, and nothing has the power to save, but your name.

Your love oh Lord, stretches to the heavens, your faithfulness, is never ending. Your love is never taken away or changed.

Your caring and able to save everyone. There is noone that you won't save, as long as we ask for forgiveness and mean it. You will forgive and actually forget. You hold everything in your hands and you never let go of anyone.

You are always there whenever we need someone to call on. You are NEVER going to forsaken us. You never fail, and you never change. You are the same yesterday and tomorrow and for all of our lives.

Thank you Lord for being you, and for saving me from everything and for protecting me from everything that may harm me.
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Easter weekend should be good. The weather is suppose to be amazing :)

Praise God for the great weather. :) <3
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Easter This Year

Easter this year should be pretty good. i have lots to do, but at the same time lots of work to do. LOL.

it will be good though. Able to get away and just focus on your.

.... Prayer is ALL That Can Help Me Now....

So as I sit, waiting, I don't know what for. Maybe its a sign, maybe its just for peace, maybe its even the ability to just stop worrying about the past. I don't know. All I can is sit here and pray for a sign and the ability to last one more day...

Whether that day has pain or joy or whatever. Life will always get better, and all I have to do is keep trusting and praying to Daddy for help and comfort.
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Retreat today....

i don't know... i'm confused about life,and wanting answers. I cant seem to get any though. I have the retreat tomorrow, but i don't know if I am ready for a whole 8 hrs focusing on God. I just dont know anymore. i dont know what i should be doing or where i should be.

my classes are ok i guess, but they need to be WAY better.
Like all i want is answers, is this too much to ask for...?

Hummmmmmm

Hmmm I donno what to do.... I'm frustrated and tired....

life in general

life is hectic but whatev. all i have to do is keep trusting in You Lord, and everything will work out.
as long as i pray to you, YOu will help me through and help me cope

Lord...? Are you there...?

Lord,
I have been trying to study for the last couple hours, and i just pray to you right now, that you will grant me the mind to focus so I can do well and accomplish the best work i possible can. I love you Lord, and thank you for not letting go of me yet :) and thank you for NEVER letting go of me. grant me peace of mind.



Amen

this week so far.

soooo im still sick, and i passed out again... :( i donno whats going on, but i wish i did. :( <3 Love you Lord, but can I please have a sign...?

Why??

Why do I keep screwing up? Relationships and life. I know you hold it in your hand, but still Lord why? What are you trying to teach me? Can you please show me? Please Lord please?
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Humph!!!

Hmmm sooo.... Once again I'm sick. But this time I will not give up, no matter what. I have way too much to be living for to just give up.

I surprised myself again

Wow. Didn't think it was possible..... I did two essays in 7 hours. Each one was about 4 or 5 pages and about 1400 words each.....

I'm happy I'm learning how to do them quick..... But marks wise, I donno. I'm a little scared, but there is no point freating over what cannot be fixed. :)
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coming up this year

coming up this year is the following... i have mountain top till april, and then expedition till december :D yay!!!! travelling to peru, NY, and Montreal :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

GAH!!!!!!!!!

sooooo........ once again.... i am sick.... :( donno with what.... but i am NOT a happy camper. :'(

School Year so far

this school year has been all over the place.
i have failed out, and crashed and burned, but somehow, for some reason, i still know that God is holding me soooo tight and safe in his hand. NOTHING can get me.
i have messed up, and fallen badly, but He doesnt care he loves me for who i am.... NOT what i did. :) :) <3 <3